Low on the Go!

uhh...humm.. hmmm...EUREKA!!

there's something wonderful and delightful about having an Archimedes moment.... all of a sudden, the answer just POPS out at you! you think to yourself, PRAISE THE LORD..and you know all is well.
betcha thought i had an amazing, sudden and godly epiphany eh?

sorry, its not that exciting. i was writing my intergroup relations exam today...and there was about 10 minutes left, and i had NO clue what the answer was for the second half of the essay question. So..i started making things up. i felt that sinking feeling; you know, the one you experience when you know that there's water coming into the boat, but don't have anything to do except jump overboard and hope there's no sharks in the sea. a bit of scylla and charybidis right there.
(haha, for some reason, as i was typing this, i had an image of steve strongitharm jumping out of a sinking paddle boat.)
anyways, i digress.

five minutes before the exam was to end, i had an eureka moment. all of a sudden, the answer was RIGHT there in front of me, and the only hurdle to jump over was that of time.
so, my pen flew, and i've never used messier writing....but what a great feeling! superficial, yes...but great nevertheless!
now, i'm filled with this adrenaline rush from sleeping 3 hours and all that speedy writing.
hmm, i think its affecting my writing here. my thoughts are feeling pretty jumbled and incoherent.

can you understand me right now? i hope so.

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on discipleship.

in other news, i met up with a friend and his sister (and her really really cute kid) yesterday, and this meeting got me thinking (don't ask me how...i have weird train of thought patterns).

i realized, yesterday, that au courant, i don't really have input from people in different stages of life (parentals excluded). sure, i have GREAT accountability from friends, and ministry-wise, i have a fantastic discipler (yay Janette!)... but all the input i ever get is pretty much related to college-aged students, or from the perspective of single young adults. The english congregation at my church is primarily composed of jr/sr.high/college/career aged individuals. Because of this, we're generally all at the same stage of life. none of us (well, almost none) are married, none of us have kids... you get the gist. With any of the older people in our congregation, there's a communication lag, because i don't speak chinese (or italian....we have this one older lady who is italian....hahaha. she's cute. loves chinese people).

i think, while i was frantically studying, i came to the realization that i WANT input from a woman at a different stage of life. i DESIRE to be discipled by someone a bit older than me who can offer me a different perspective on life. i want someone godly who can teach me about what it is like to be a mother (other than my own mother) and what it is like to be a wife. Someone who can help me prepare for the day, Lord willing, that i become one of these things. and, if i never become one of those things, that's fine too, because i will have learned life principles and shared beautiful things with said person.

i think it would be lovely to spend time with this person, and learn from osmosis. not a rigid "let's learn this today", but more of a "let's spend time together, so that you can learn from me" type deal.

i don't know if that makes sense.

and i don't know where i'll find the said person. how does one proceed to find someone to disciple her when its not in a solid ministry context? i think i'll have to pray about this.

maybe, i'll even pull a Selene Lau and ASK someone straight up to disciple me. maybe. seems a bit of a role reversal....

do you have to be friends with someone before you can ask them a question like this? if so, what friends do i have at a different stage of life? not many...if i did, i would already have some sort of accountability relationship with them right? haha... i should put an ad in a newspaper or something.

i can see it now:

one scf (single chinese female) looking for married with children woman to develop a discipleship friendship with. preferably mid-twenties to late 40s/early 50s...

bizarre.
i am not sure. seems uncanilly similar to asking someone out on a first date.

anyways, i'ma going to pray about this some more.