Low on the Go!

Some random musings...

so i'm sitting in a library i've never been in before. lots of windows. an exciting endeavour: i am going to make it my goal to sit and study in each one of the 66 (give or take) libraries on campus by the time i graduate.
this one isn't that spectacular. a nice room.... kinda harry potter meets frank lloyd wright with about 16 huge windows on one side...but no couches. where am i supposed to take my afternoon nap? i'll have to head over to a different library.
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after my last blog, i wanted to put in an addendum--i don't affirm or uphold "rating" in any way. in fact, i find it quite demeaning and dehumanizing; i once became quite vexed at a good friend of mine for doing it. i will concede, he did make a good point about how everyone does this sort of thing in their head at one point or another. And if this is really the case, then is what is so aberrant about doing so out loud?
i struggle with this question--is it a question of tact? politeness? Somehow rating out loud seems more vulgar and unscrupulous. But perhaps, really there isn't that much of a distinction between the two.
Perhaps, both are equally vulgar and unscrupulous. Perhaps we need to change the way we think, seeing brothers and sisters as beautiful creations that the Master Artist fashioned.
is this even possible? once i get to know people, they often become more beautiful to me--simply because i've fallen in love with their beautiful personalities. however, right off the bat, it is often difficult to not compare people to worldy standards of beauty. and this doesn't only extend to others..so often i look in the mirror and wish i was more beautiful. each day when i step on the scale, i think to myself...just a couple more pounds and you'll be happy with your weight. THEN you'll be beautiful.

this isn't a plea to have comments on my blog such as "you're beautiful" or "you're not that bad looking." its more of a contemplation on how my thoughts and actions need to change... physical beauty is so fleeting, so why do i strive so hard to attain it? so that i can be rated as an 8 instead of a 4 by the construction workers outside my apartment? no...this line of thinking needs to change. a striving to become more like Christ is needed. beautiful souls are much more lasting than earthly things which will pass away anyways.
i dunno. at any rate, i'm going to strive to change my thinking in this area.

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addition 12:33pm

i am seriously infatuated with the chinese food trucks on my campus. its amazing. i forgot to pack my lunch today, so i scrounged up $4.50 in change and went to one of the chinese food trucks and got Curry Chicken and veggies on rice.. 3 HUGE drumsticks, carrots, potatoes, rice and curry sauce for $4.50..packed to the brim in this HUGE mother of a styrofoam container. it was absolutely lovely. i'm pretty glad i'll be going to window shop with my friend for a couple of hours. i feel sick from eating so much. ugh. haha. but yes, moral of the story is...chinese food trucks are simply precious. wex.