Low on the Go!

yes, you may have noticed. i have been blogging.


you may have noticed thati am blogging again, even though i said i was going on hiatus. i took a weekend to mull over this; i seriously thought about it, and decided that this blog will
continue. there are things which will remain the same and things which i have decided to revamp.

in the coming months (hopefully), a layout restructuring will occur, but this is just a surface change. you may not have noticed, but i have started to space out the personal blogs, alternating them with light material like pictures or links to other blogs. this gives me more time to really reflect on what i want to say. thoughts whiz around my mind at a million thoughts per second at any given moment, but not everything needs to be said. i'm learning to process more before speaking.

in august, this blog will turn 4 years old, and today i received my 40, 500th hit. Compared to people like Tim Challies or the Mahaney girls, this is a piddly number. Nevertheless, it is daunting to think that there have been over 40 thousand hits here in less than 4 years.

when my friend told me that blogs that talk a great deal about relationships can be perceived as flaky, i was pretty hurt. compared to this friend, or other friends, or uber-blogger, Tim Challies, i do blog a great deal about relationships. but upon reflection, i do not find this flaky. i think there is merit in blogging about relationships, whether they be boy-girl relationships, friendships or my relationship with Jesus Christ. i think there is merit in being real about my struggles and sharing them with others. i think there is merit in writing about boy-girl relationships, because i do not want to wait until i am a girlfriend/wife/mother to think about these things. i want to contemplate them now. and perhaps, you should too. i think there is merit in blogging about my relationship with friends and with Jesus, because i think these things are relevant to people. Humanity was created to be relational. i am a relational being and you are too. if my recognizing this and discussing these things makes me flaky in one's eyes, then so be it. i'll take it.

all this to say, i have decided to keep this blog around, because i think that it is valuable to the blogging community. the reason for this is not because my words are somehow better than others (not at all!), but because i offer something few other bloggers do. there are many blogs that are great at teaching from the Word, and for these blogs, i am grateful. there are also many blogs that offer great book reviews and random tidbits. alas, there are few people who are willing to be even close to semi-personal on their blogs. i am not a perfect person, and if you read this blog often, you know that this is true. but there is worth in sharing my struggles and being honest about what i am going through. i think many a person can glean from these struggles of a simple, small-town-in-a-big-city girl.

that having been said, there are changes which will be happening, and i need you to know that. when i started this blog, i would use it as a tool to bash people all the time. the amount of profanity and bashing that once existed at lowonthego revolts me and simultaneously causes me to blush. a while back, i made a conscious decision that this blog would no longer be used as a tool to underhandedly tell someone what i thought of them. unless i am directly quoting someone, or am being facetious and discussing something light, i am going to refrain from using names. please, don't read this blog and automatically assume i am talking about you or someone you know. if i don't list a name, it is because i want to protect the anonymity of the person, and am purposely being cautious to do so. please do not come to me and ask me if i am talking about you, because i know many a person and i may or may not be talking about you. additionally, i can assure you that i am not writing about you or your faults, but perhaps my thoughts in dealing with a particular issue in a relationship or my perception of how things are in certain relationships (which admittedly are often faulty).

so, all that having been said, hopefully you stick around and continue to read this blog. i hope it sparks debate from time to time, but now that i am actually thinking before i write, i will take the advice of a dear friend of mine, and write unapologetically. i will not, however, start to capitalize the first word of each sentence.