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a good Good Friday.

a friend of mine invited me over to his house for lunch today. apparently they were having chinese guests over? at any rate, i decided last night that i would go, and i was pretty excited. if you know this friend, you'd also know that his mum makes some good food. Well, technically any food is better than what i usually eat at home (i'm somewhat of a good cook, but when there's no one to impress but myself, it bodes the question, 'whats the point?'). At any rate, woke up this morning at Janette's house (had an awesomely fun sleepover with her and pri last night. y'all can read about it on pri's blog.) and remembered... that as a church we were fasting on Good Friday. aie! no turkey lunch?

as i lay snuggled up on the mattress, my first thought that came to mind (ashamedly) was "ugh! can't i just fast a different day?" and then "why don't i just drop the fast, its not that important anyways." and finally, "stupid plan for fasting."

and then it hit me. conviction central!! what kind of priorities do i have if i'd choose turkey and friends (in that order...ahhaha) over God? as i was dragging my feet around, dreading the one day fast, my mind was thinking... "woe is me. what a sacrifice." i was hit with the sinking pit in my stomach of my carnal and sinful nature. SACRIFICE?? giving up turkey? uh, hello! i think not. Sacrifice was the suffering He endured. The mockery, the loneliness, the stench of Satan and the pain--now THATs suffering. Sacrifice was living a life of absolute purity and accepting treatment as a criminal. Sacrifice was the decision that He would rather go to hell for me than to go to heaven without me.

It put it into perspective for me. Suffering is not giving up turkey on a friday afternoon.

With this in mind, i set off for church, deciding against a friday lunch with friends...and i am SO immensely glad that i did. Would i have had more fun otherwise? Perhaps. But there is no better food for the soul than a good Good Friday, wherein which sin is recognized once again and where i can come boldly before the Lord and weep at His feet. Today will not be about what i gave up (which is nothing at all really) but rather, about what He gave up so that i could know Him.