Low on the Go!

i wish there was some way that i could sum up my time here. some way to declare that i will leave knowing i've made a profound difference on montreal. but the truth is...montreal project has had a profound impact on me. its been a humbling process--once which i'm still mulling over.

its a weird feeling knowing that in a week i'll be back to Toronto..a place which has become home. In 6 weeks we can become enamoured with a city, especially when there is a huge and pointed purpose in going to that city in the first place. But after 3 years in a city, its easy to become jaded and even bitter towards broken hearts and broken people--all components of a place we call home, and a thing we call life.

In a week i'll be back in Toronto. My home. And if i'm perfectly honest...i'm scared. i feel as though i haven't had adequate time to debrief myself before jetting off to New York and then back to home. But this in itself is a minor thing. Perhaps i'm more scared because my eyes have been opened to heartbreak in the lives of those i live with and those i share life with in Toronto. How do i deal with this? I suppose its the same way i would deal with heartbreak to those i'm ministering to here in Montreal.
Going back also means i have to deal with some unresolved issues with me and others, and this scares me as well. On my own, i am incapable of showing love. But it is my hope that i would go home to Toronto and be a good ambassador there too. I want to live life largely during what is possibly my last year in Toronto.
I want to bring God's cheer and love to those i live with.

its my prayer that this note that was left on my door here in Montreal wouldn't just be reflective of my time here...but reflective of a life lived fully for Christ.